Disappear into Thin Air.

"I've been nice with words to you - no veiled insults, no name calling and no snide remarks." as i get it from xingyi's blog.

who started the low class people?

afterall, i find it a joke when i see people starting to apologise to one and another in their blog for things that they'd done, whether backstab or not, just to prove to me how strong their frienship is.
if that's really the case, i totally have no regrets, at all.

i did put a stop about this matter after i chatted with you in msn.
the status which i put that i felt disgusted and awful, which is since then till today, was after i read about your blog post about me and before i chatted with you in msn.
things started all over again when all your girlfriends come disturb my tagboard and your boyfriend in facebook.
you get me?
trying to accuse me back. what the hell.

aiya
fine. that's it.

seriously (serious like i've never been so serious or whatever because i keep seeing this word by people in blog, facebook, for no reason)
you girls get your life and i get my life.

i'd said even if i did something wrong to any or all of you girls, i wasnt given a chance to explain myself.
justify? who needed to justify?
come on, i dont have to justify to a group of girls for things that i'd done.
explanation and justify are totally two different thing.

you girls hate me and my life still carries on anyway.

get this clear, once and for all,
no big deal SERIOUSLY.
( just because everything started that you made a big fuss out of nothing that i msn to your exbf about you. that's all.)

Labels: bitch.

i got this from yingyan's tagboard.

21 Jun 09, 18:26
xinyi: oh sorry, we thought is orange. nvr ever knew u meant abalone or wine or anything expensive. u didn even appreaciate that some of us who, actually have impt things that day but still chose

21 Jun 09, 18:30
xinyi: go. AND one more thing, WHEN did i gang up with xingyi to ***** abt u? They saw ur every actions themselves too. So, u still consider eileen weiting and yingyan as friends u treasure after all these.

xinyi: but u delete me away from ur "friend list" tgt with xingyi. yeah she is my bff, so? the rest is my bff too. dun self assume anything pls. If we talk to u, will u listen? NO.

xinyi: at most you'll "oh ok i get it now.." or "i see i know what to do already" but end up still ......
21 Jun 09, 18:33

after i left my one explanation over there,

YUTIN9*: i did told xinyi in msn about it that night. regarding you girls didnt bring anything over. and thats why i dared to say things even in front of weiting when i met with my other side gfs.

so..
what i wanted to say is..

honestly, i really dont know what is self-assume.
first was self-amused by the bitch and now come this from her bff.
but anyway so i take it as assume as far as i know from what i'd learnt in school.

i really want to highlight this point and that is..

"...dun self assume anything pls. If we talk to u, will u listen? NO.

xinyi: at most you'll "oh ok i get it now.." or "i see i know what to do already" but end up still ......"

you told me not to assume anything,
but yet after which you say,
if we talk to you, will you listen? NO.

im really particular about this because i could hardly know anyone who would want to prompt a question or in a reply to a person and the person is able to answer herself.
furthermore, its in caps lock for the answer.

forget about that but then, next tag which was continued was
at most you'll "oh ok i get it now.." or "i see i know what to do already" but end up still ......

i really couldnt understand ( at least i tried to) how are you able to predict what im going to do if you told me to do something.
the worse thing is, i dont even know myself for what the reply is going to be.
and and end up still.......

what? what?
can tell me whats you are talking about?

so now is what?

you want me to self-assume or not to self-assume end up still???

the reason i deleted you two from facebook is because i dont wish to be updated of such irritating status like changing personal messages every one hour or so.

i decided to leave my replies here for the tag because personally i feel its not right to create a big fuss out of nothing commotion at other's tagboard.

Labels: bitch bff.

you're one such brillant bitch who would write all your bad feelings about me in your blog,
and successfully made your boyfriend and good girlfriends to do all the bad mouthings by leaving comments in facebook and tags at my webpage, showing people that they're doing such nasty acts.
pretending to be quiet and innocent now, see how well your boyfriend and girlfriends perform for you even though you may or may not expect them to do for you.

just because you didnt wish to hang out with me anymore, (you mentioned it yourself in your blog under SELF-AMUSED, which i couldnt figure it out whats the meaning exactly cos its not even on the searching web engine, talked about you didnt like me in the end) so you actually started bitching about me first with your bff to the most innocent-thinking person in the group.

then the group of three break the news to the person who is a gemini, who usually acts harshly but because the character due to being loyal to friends so they think they should ( in this case yes), and successfully made her tag all the bad things out on my webpage.

literally, its like you're the thief but yet you're pointing finger at others to catch the real culprit?
okay simply put, its pot calling the kettle black.

ok i wiki-ed for this underhand person and so it wrote,

The phrase "The pot calling the kettle black" is an idiom used to accuse a person or thing of being marked with or guilty of the very thing they are pointing out; in this interpretation, it is shown that there is something shared.

couldnt imagine you making a big fuss out of nothing to the people around you,
like just because i msn-ed your exbf to talk about what i saw at citylink,
and its the truth anyway, not that i made up some tales.

so what's wrong with that?
not happy? just tell me straight into my face instead of blogging and bursting all your anger/unhappiness you'd with me for the past whatever months.
what a joke.

im not afraid to be called as childish and attention seeking since i'd already blogged so much about it.
unlike some bitch who can even blog more about it in a detailed manner yet still daring to say people is childish and attention seeking.
then i'd use i feel disgusted and awful to describe you back.

oh yes i almost forget you can take this chance to tell your girlfriends how innocent you are
and/or how bad i was.

but whatever it is, congratulations to you for making this plan such a success seriously.
it must have been hard on you :)

from what i see, i see my points are all valid since weiting told me before that you were the most scheming person in the group.
( my advice is you should double-check with weiting if you dont believe me like since whatever days, or you had already done so, since you mentioned in your blog like you're like damn fucking close with your girlfriends. but whatever it is, its my piece of advice and so its none of my biz anyway if u'd done so or not. )

im just stating things that i've seen from this incident.
seeing all the true face of each and everyone of you.

its been long since i blog out this way but i think this is just another method of treating back underhand people.

last note,
this is just going to be a freaking small part of thing in my life and its not going to pull me down.
you girls shud just carry on with the gossips and bitching sessions about me just like what you girls had done for the months which you girls enjoyed so much.

its not like im going to die without you girls'.
in my heart, i know what i'd done clear consciously and i've no regrets from here.

from what i see, you girls choose to listen to each other's story,
trying to act like there's no bitch in the first place ( yea my foot)and say im acting nice.
you girls didnt even give me a chance to explain myself before you girls started the bitching sessions about me.
out of no where, you girls turn your backs against me based on the conclusions you girls made.

and yingyan if you really want to create another Q&A session,
i'd explained myself in your tagboard thats all.
the rest i see no point no matter how hard i try to explain because you girls did not give me a chance at first.
why should i?

is this friendship?
fuck it.

Labels: bitch.

hahahhaha what a joke man.
i should say this out since someone thinks she's damn fucking right in her blog post.

i added YOUR EX BOYFRIEND IN MSN like damn long ago la.
just that i didnt talk to him except yesterday to tell him all the stuffs.

did i ever tell you before that one of your good friends now
betrayed you like fuck, telling me all the bad things you did to her just because of your EX BOY FRIEND?

and holy shit why did i invited a group of friends over to my house during CNY
when i'd really done my best in hosting yet giving me that kind of face like i owe her a million dollar for not being a good host.

i really appreciate my friends who at least brought something over to share around since i invited them over.
i felt so bad that i didnt do a good host since hs brought over abalone and at least my guy friends specially went down supermarket to get some sweet wine over as gifts.
not like a whole group of people coming over w/o any gifts and except like one freaking stupid looking balloon gotten from the streets.

oh yes since you mentioned YOUR EX BOYFRIEND whatever,
i'd say the group of you are like damn poor thing to be with you,
because YOU TOLD YOUR EX BOY FRIEND THAT WE ARENT ON THE GOOD TERM, JUST THE SURFACE ONLY.

oh fuck what a great thing.
im so glad im not in the group anymore.

and at least, im not like people who would write long wishlist on what they want
and tell their bff in the group what exactly you wanted
and make sure we get it for you on your damn birthday.

damn its not cheap and worth at least like 100bucks.

i said that in the end i'd nobody but myself. and shit. im not referring i lost you girls.

come on, who dont know who started the BITCHING THING?
YOU KNOW IT YOURSELF.

low class? i thought its you.

and yes, since you got yourself a new guy, i wish you all the best bitch.

your expression on the face when i called out to you on purpose, i'd really never forget. though it made me feel fucking DISGUSTED bitch.

self amused? come on, what the word? i couldnt even find the word in the dictionary.
so now, tell me who's the low class people?

Labels: bitch.

for some reasons, times, i wish things to turn out the way like i imagined.

you know the feelings when your heart hopes things to be like,
but yet your mind tells you that its impossible?

yes, i really do hate the feeling.
eg; i wish i can score an A for the EBA test without studying for it,
yet i know i've to study and still it depends if can score an A depending on the difficulty level of the paper.

im not referring to this example of course,
and reason is basically its just a common test paper.
as you know me well, it's all about relationship.

things that evolve me are family, friendship and relationship.
i cant deny that times i really do suck in any or all of this,
but as i grow older, i get to learn from mistakes and not make the mistakes again.

learning from mistake is one thing,
and not making the mistake is another thing.

since primary school, i always do face friendship problems because i know
everyday when i reach school, i see my favorite or best friends.
thats why i always treat them the best than anyone else,
but to some extent, i started having family problems due to friends problems.

for instance, where once, my mum told me not to be too close with this particular primary school friend.
apparently, i refused because i know she's the best-friend-forever in primary school.
whatever i do or wherever i go, i'd be with her.

but when my mum added on, 'her mum says you are bringing her bad.'
my heart kindof fell straight onto the ground.
i mean, why would parents think this way? we're just primary school friends and how will i bring her bad?
i scored full marks for mathematics test before and once a english subject top scorer. other than that, i play netball for sports.
will i bring her to take drugs or influence her to run away from home?

the lesson learnt was, no matter how friendship is tad close,
family will always come first.
but somehow, i always neglect the factor that family comes above all of these.

i know, i've to learn and cope with these three factors.
but when it comes to relationship,
love sweetness, small quarrels or huge fight, or all heartbreaking matters,
you start to feel.
yes, the word is feel.

you felt the love, warmth, considerate, thoughtful
bascially, its all love that you get when you're in a relationship.
but everytime, or once or twice, you're out of the relationship,
you felt the heartpain, the lost in confidence in yourself and the trust from anyone else.

to me, i'd say;

at the end of everything, you've no one but yourself.

it does not only applies to relationship but to all the things you do in life.
studies, thats the next best example.
you slug so hard to mug for exams is for yourself to have a better future and not your parents.
they work so hard thats why i'd be able to get a proper education.
in fact, i SHOULD be satisfied with everything i've gotten from my family.

times i really hope to remind myself that i should be doing the best for myself and next for my family.
the reason i said i really hope because, i know myself that i've no self-disciplined,
but i believe that as long as i've realised to achieve the target and have the filial piety 孝,
impossible is nothing.

life is never easy and things dont always go our way as we hope.

Labels: heart mind and soul, love., yuting

get to see my friends. my jjc friends to be exact.
they're really a group of friends who are nice approachable and, humorous to some extent. hahahaha.
well i passed the important job of asking who will be able to make it to yeemin.
and damn him he didnt come over because of kiddy problem.
lol. i know you read so i purposely wrote this.
damn you im so nice that i dont watch horror movie yet in the end agreed to watch it with you guys. you should be damn honoured! hahahaha.

anyway, people who came over are jane noelle jianwen zhengbao and elgin.
jeaneve couldnt make it last min because she was sick and i still played a prank on her through the phone hehehee.

they came around over around 5PM and we played a card game
which was introduced by jianwen but i forgot about the title of the game already.
it was pretty interesting and occupied the time we'd before the pizza arrvies!
i remembered in the end zhengbao still won the game though i managed to get his good card in the game!

then the pizza arrvies and we had gotten the table and chairs ready before the card game at the rooftop.
catch up with each other while enjoying pizzas!
honestly, i havent been eating pizza for very long already!
then sky get darkens and i went to get the two romantic bulbs get fix and light up.
hahahahha

so we started playing taboo!
when playing this game, i get to know who on the 'same channel' or 'different channel' from me.
i mean if i can get the way they describe or explain the words, means im on the 'same channel'. if not, i usually give up and hope i can be in the same team as someone else.
hahahahaha.

believe it or not, we played the game for around 2.5hours!
we're really so tired but yet some, like noelle still insisted to play the cards.
lol.
you know, the feeling like you just want to try and tell people the words but you didnt wish to guess the word?
yea thats the feeling.
hahahahah.

overall it was a nice day, because it didnt rain!
and they werent choosy etc and the plan went smoothly!

i mean, sometime i'd already tried to be a good host but yet you expect more or already find it boring at the start, i'd really feel bad about it.

just to share w/ you guys the reason i'd planned three celebrations and not one is because i hope i can cope and enjoy well with the people i'd invited.
i dont wish to be spending a little time here and there and yet in the end, some guests felt i didnt do a good host.
i mean honestly, i'd felt this way too if my friend(s) do the same thing, but still, i wish for more understanding and put myself into his/her shoe.

but still, im thankful for this group of people coming over just to celebrate my birthday with me!

Labels: birthday, canadian pizza, jjc, taboo., yuting

hi my dear all.
i've been enjoying myself to the max for the past two days since the paper ended.

time for some seriousness for projects
dread that.
and i hope to spend more time w/ my family for this two weeks holidays.
love.

just an update,
i've gotten photos from madey and will upload soon.

and,
im glad things ended off this way.
you've always been someone special to me and always will.
i know we'll see each other again.

heading to bed soon,
as long as i start feeling tired.
im feeling so energetic now.
zomg.

Labels: holidays, love, yuting

..to end!
finally. its the last paper tmrw.
electronic biz application paper.
i know nuts about EBA till now i started revising around 7PM after my dinner.
its like so much to memorise!
)))):

anyway, i've no idea why i was starring at my desktop
probably waiting for people to reply my instant messages or eyes really needed a break from all the copying of notes.

well.
how many 1s can you find in this desktop print screen?
(((((:

tata. gone.
back to the hell of notes/shit.

Labels: common test, love, yuting

once again, i felt the love and assurance.

sometimes, things is so difficult to explain.

staying close to my heart.

be back soon.
xoxoxo love.

Labels: love, yuting

im not being productive because im studying 1 chapter yet i rest an hour! :((

i've so much to say.

let me down?
why cant you prove it to me rather than letting all be words?
probably i'll be seeing you with a new girl in a few weeks' time.
sorry to say that but thats how i feel right now.

i'd done my best but what about you?
i think its not fair.
i know, when it comes to love,
what's fair and what's not?
but of course i do hope to see some appreciation from me at least.
i dont ask for much, really.

we'd so much things to be done,
the things you used to say about us,
the words which you used to assure me,
isnt it pointless to say everything now?

i'd accepted for who you're and now,
you wished i can do even more for you.
what if i cant?
does this mean that that's the end of this relationship?

you're just plainly selfish for what you want.
you wanted your own happiness, doing things you love to do,
which doesnt include me in your life,
its totally disappointing.

its not my fault for not being able to accept you but you
who wouldnt even want to make a small change in your life for me.

enough of all these emotional stuffs.
i'll wash up my face and get a short rest
before hitting back to my books.

stay focus
stay focus
stay focus.

Labels: love, yuting

taking a short break from my studying from human resource management.
the paper dont seem to be a killer because it only consist of 5 topics.
i hope i'd be able to continue with all the memorizing after blogging this quite outdated post.

anyway it was ben's invitation to his house condo for celebration again.
this time round was a pool party and everyone had to get into the pool..
so as all are prepared, the girls had our bikinis and the guys had their board shorts.
supposed to meet at opposite lakeside mrt station bus stop at 5.30.
none reached except me, even the organiser who's no other than YX, left home at 5.30PM.
how great. LOL.

but soon i saw augus and gin walking over.
then met up with jasmine, wayne and zixuan to meet the rest outside lakeshore gate.
yep soon madey came with isaac and YX came with ZW.
benjamin joined us later on at the invited area.
for the night, i'd these group of people for the accompany.

buffet was good and had malibu with pineapple juice.
well something new.
i remembered CNY at BEN'S BBQ was..
chivas and green tea. or malibu and greentea?
regina bought the Moet Champagne as well.
been wanting to try it out and yep it was nice too.

had the cake cutting ceremony,
photo taking ceremony as usual.
the cake from four leaves was awesome.
and another 2 more cakes from bakerzin.

well, we went off by signing our big names on the guest book.
one per page which was really difficult becos i always say the same few words.
"happy 21st birthday.."
"hope you'd enjoyed your birthday with us.."
other than that, i dont really know what to write.
but anyway, i managed to sign off by using markers and upsize my handwriting to at least font 70. LOL.

this celebration was about 2.5 weeks ago but still, if hideaki if u are reading this,
thanks for inviting me over and still, "hope you'd enjoyed your birthday with us". LOL.
and yes, hope you like the watch yea.
personally i like it alot. probably the band colour is pretty unique and the interior design is simple too.
not too sure if it suits you though but im sure you'll wear it.
hahahahha!

Labels: 21st, benedick, esprit watch, lakeshore, prints, ribbon., yuting